It's nothing but time and a face that you lose I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose I'll write you a postcard I'll send you the news

Woe is me, woe is me. It started out with me feeling a little nauseous on the way home from New Orleans, then followed a little cough. I got home from class yesterday afternoon & it just hit me! The fever had made it's home in my little body. I never really get sick, so when I do I try to do whatever I can to get the illness out of my body. I took two warm baths, drank bottles on top of bottles of water & my sister Shea fixed me two bowls of chicken broth.

I suppose the good thing about feeling not so good is that I have no energy to do anything & I get to enjoy my bed, which is exactly what I did all day. And I got caught up on some blogging. One of my favorite new fun blogs Notebook Doodles had a "doodle" of what I have been exactly feeling with this nastiness & feeling bleh. There are a couple of others that I really loved too.

Hopefully by tomorrow this will all be gone! I feel much better today, just have a nasty cold & still feel exhausted, bleh!

Title: Your Ex-Lover Is Dead by Stars

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry you don't know how lovely you are I had to find you tell you I need you tell you I've set you apart

Today is Music Monday & I know I'm supposed to have a new upcoming band to tell y'all about & to hear their lovely music. However right now the only thing that I have been listening to is Coldplay's The Scientist. Well actually it's my best friend, Dea, singing it. She recorded herself playing it on the guitar & singing it & I'm really loving everything about the way she sings the song. It's nice sometimes to go back to the familiar.

My sister Shea & I had such an amazing weekend with my other best friend Lexie in New Orleans for her 24th birthday. I needed to be there with her for this special occasion & I'm so glad I was! I'll post photos of the trip sometime this week.

I have a lot of different things going on in my mind right now, as I'm sure we all do. My sister Shea & I had a really good talk last night on the long road back home. I usually have a hard time opening up to people about what I am truly going through & being completely honest about what I'm feeling. I'm an internalizer through & through. Shea told me last night that she doesn't have to worry about me when I make decisions because she knows I think & think & think about it in all aspects before I make that decision. To tell you the truth I was so scared to talk to her about what I had been thinking about for the past couple of months. But like a good sister she knew it was coming up in subject. I love how my sister & friends know me that well. To hear Shea & Lexie too, say that they trust me & know that I'll make a good decision makes me feel so much better. I'm just remembering to breathe & trying not to think so much about the future. I'm actually scared right now & don't know what to think.

photo from here

Title: The Scientist by Coldplay

I have travelled through so many towns dunno why dunno where dont care less its all the same how can i protect you in this crazy world Its alright

I'm off on another road trip for the weekend & this time I'm on my way to New Orleans. It's my best friends Lexie's bday, she's going to be 24! Happy Birthday My Lexie Love! I'm leaving in an hour & I have yet to even begin to pack, woops. I'll get it done...I hope. Have a marvelous weekend!

Title: Crazy World by Aslan

Light and day is more than you'll say because all my feelings are more than i can let by or not more than you've got just follow the day

This is a long post just because there are so many movies that are out or are coming soon that I want to see. I made a movie list the other day of movies & I looked up all the trailers & these were the ones I liked the best. I'm actually quite picky about films I see in theaters, just because I costs so much to see a movie now! I usually just Redbox it if I want to see a movie or go to the big $5 dollar bin at Walmart. You know what I'm talking about! You dig & dig & dig til you find that perfect movie that you can't even believe is in that bin! But this is not a post about the movie bins at Walmart lol. I hope these movies come to dvd soon or someone takes me out to a movie or I win the lottery so I can see all of these in theaters, ha fat chance.
Is there any movies that you guys are just dying to see? And Twilight doesn't count! Basically any other movie then Twilight.

Title: Light & Day by The Polyphonic Spree

Tonight i wanna dance can you do that with you man yea tonight i wanna groove and let the music make you move i love it we're slow dancin together

Today I just realized that it's November!! That's how crazy I suppose my life has been, I still think I'm in October. November is becoming my favorite month. I'm beginning to really love Thanksgiving. With this month comes one of the best times of the year called No Shave November. This month is dedicated to those wonderful men out there that sport the furriness & I couldn't be any happier this month. This thing should become a national holiday! For all you girls that are haters of the beards, I'm sorry, you are missing out on something that God so generously gave the male gender. And thank goodness He did.

These are a few of my favorite bearded fellas & also my close guy friends Craig, Ken, & Simon that have the best fur around! When you see a guy that's sporting a beard this month go up & give him a high five & show him that you appreciate it, I know I do.

Title: Slow Dance by John Legend

Seven days has gone so fast, I really thought the pain would pass it's been nearly an hour, since I thought of you but your not answering the phone

Title: Water & A Flame by Daniel Merriweather ft. Adele

I'm like the rain in a downpour I wash away what you long for and I wave goodbye with the sun in my eyes I wish I could be there tonight

Once again it's Monday, somehow I always find myself back on Monday. It's like you can never get away from it no matter how slow the week goes, it's always going to be Monday all over again.

It's Music Monday which makes my day a lot better. Brandi Carlile has been one of my favorite singers for about 4 years now. Her soulful melodies have become such a staple in my life. I have never seen in her live but hopefully it will be soon, because i have heard she is absolutely brilliant live. You know when an artists comes out with a new album & you are so excited but annoyed that you have to learn all these new songs or that these songs will not be as good as the last songs. Well it is not like that at all with Brandi's new album. All her music flows so well together & I feel like this music just adds to the already amazing songs she has.

So go check it out!! It will make your Monday a little better.
Title: Downpour by Brandi Carlile

And now in my dreams, I can feel the weight I can just come clean I keep it to myself, I know what it means I can't have you, but I have dreams

My sister was being a photographer while we went around town. I fell asleep in the car because we were stuck in traffic for 2 hours! Oh Dallas traffic. It was raining outside, perfect time to take an afternoon nap.

Do you ever have days that you just love your home so much you never want to leave it? I'm going through that, never wanting to leave because I feel safe & cozy. Yesterday I never left my house. I think I went outside to check the mail, but that's it. Instead I stayed on my couch watching the magicalness (not a word) of Say Yes To The Dress. Show after show after show, & oddly enough I never got tired of looking at all those beautiful gowns. now I'm not one to Oooo & Aww over the bliss of weddings, but I did go on a little wedding kick today. Maybe I shouldn't be left alone for too long. I just have to say that there are some amazing ideas that people are coming up with for inexpensive but very chic weddings. I guess if anything it gives me hope for the future that I don't have to spend so much on that day.

I want to say that I am very proud of my sister Shea, she finally was able to get a job! For the past 7 months I have been the bread winner for the two of us, but not any longer! Shea is now a hostess at Wolf Gang Puck's resturant called 560 in the Reunion tower in Dallas. If you don't know what Reunion tower is, it's that great big ball tower that lights up. I'm very excited for her & thankful too.


There are so many different posts I want to do on here, but when I go to write a new post I always forget what that brilliant idea was I had. Maybe I should start keeping an blog idea notebook. That would be a good idea.
Title: Dreams by Brandi Carlile

You always did kind of drive me crazy and pissed me off ‘cause I let it faze me but I never wanted my time with you to end

It's been a sleepy day. A day where I have just relaxed & talked to my best friend all day. It's going to be a good cozy weekend. This song made me smile today.

The Guy That Says Goodbye by Griffin House
You don’t need to change a thing about you babe
I’m telling you
From where I sit, you’re one of a kind
Relationships, I don’t know why, they never work you and they make you cry
But the guy that says goodbye to you is out of his mind
Well I been down and I need your help I’ve been feeling sorry for myself
Don’t hesitate to boost my confidence
I been lost and I need direction, I could use a little love-protection
What do you say, honey, come to my defense?
I’ll stand up for you if it’s what you need and I can take a punch, I don’t mind to bleed
As long as afterwards you feel bad for me
And you give me all of your attention I got deep desire and it needs quenchin’
I think that’s pretty plain for you to see
Hell, enough about me and more about you cause that’d be the gentlemanly thing to do
I hope you like your men sweet and polite
I thought I was done with telling you but I ain’t nearly halfway through
I got a few more things I’d like to say to you tonight
You don’t need to change a thing about you babe
I’m telling you
From where I sit you’re one of a kind
Relationships, I don’t know why, they never work out and they make you cry
But the guy that says goodbye to you is out of his mind
You always did kind of drive me crazy and pissed me off ‘cause I let it faze me
But I never wanted my time with you to end
Now I’m back in town for a day or two and mostly I came back just to see you
I’m leaving now but I don’t want to go
You don’t need to change a thing about you babe
I’m telling you
From where I sit you’re one of a kind
Relationships, I don’t know why, they never work out and they make you cry
But the guy that says goodbye to you is out of his mind.

photo from here

Cá fhad é ó Siúl tríd na stoirmeacha Dul tríd na stoirmeacha Cá fhad é ó

Sometimes I get scared & feel overwhelmed when I think about going to Africa. My thoughts get caught up in the fact that I might fail. Not failure for myself, but that I will fail others. I try not to think of the corruption that goes on there, because if I focus on that I feel a hopelessness & helplessness. I think that there would be nothing that I can do as one person.
But then after all these thoughts come, something happens to me that is unexplainable. Every time I think of just one child & that whatever thoughts of failure or judgment I have on myself just completely lifts off of me.
I don't want to be an Anthropologist. I don't want to be a Sociologist. I just want to help. I want to be knowledgeable also. Because a bleeding heart without wisdom is just a bleeding heart.
Every year my friend Kasey goes to Zambia with an organization called Family Legacy & is based here in Dallas. These are some of her photos of this past summer when she spent 3 months there at Camp Life. I love these photos so much & I'm so glad I have close friends that are willing to put themselves aside for children.
Title: Storms In Africa by Enya

Hey baby Mrs Cold acting so tough didn’t know you had it in you to be hurt at all you waited too long you should have hooked me

Every night I have come home from work or school HBO is play the Sex and The City movie. I was not a fan of this movie at all when I saw it in theaters & it still is a little cliche for me. After these past couple of weeks with girlfriends going through insane breakup drama I feel exactly like Charlotte in this scene. I just want to go up to every guy that not only my best friends trusted, but I trusted & even began to love & just smack them while wearing all of my rings. How do you get over things like this though? When do you stop "protecting" your friends & just say okay I know you can handle the situation? I'm not one to get in the middle of even my best friends relationship drama. I wish I was the kind of friend that could call the guy up & say really mean things because he deserves it, but I'm not at all. The worst I would come up with is "I curse the day you were born." Oh yeah that's a blow to the heart. When my best friend & her ex guy broke up about a month a go it wasn't a bad break up at all. I even sent him a text that said I will always hold him in the highest esteem (I had been watching Sense & Sensibility right before I sent it) but now I regret sending him that text every time I talk to my best friend.
All I want to say is bloody hell to all those guys & shake my fists at them!
Title: Mrs. Cold by Kings Of Convenience