Today I miss them very much

Things are changing clearly in our living sinularily you have grown Step out of the past you thought it last from the unknown to the uknown

The line between giving up & letting go are very thin. I get confused between the two. There is a point when you get fed up & say i can' do this anymore & walk away. Then there is the other situation that u say that you need to do what is right for you now & you know you have to let go of that person & relationship. I never want to give up, but it's hard letting go. Do you try to forget? I don't want to hold on to the past but when is the moving on part supposed to begin. I have a few girlfriends that are going through this letting go/ giving up stage with their relationships. I usually just listen when they tell me about their issues, sometimes people just want to talk about what is going on & unload. Advice is very important but when you have more than one person telling you what they think is best in that situation it can become confusing. I guess we all might be in the stage of letting go or giving up one in area of our lives. When does it become easier? probably never, so i guess it's better to learn now then later. i sigh & hope maybe the other person is willing to hold on & keep trying, we can always hope for the best i suppose.

Run to your dreaming when you’re alone Not what you should be or what you’ve become

I wish i was at the pool with all my girlfriends today, sipping on a nice refreshing mojito & enjoying the summer & sun. It hasn't felt like summer so much & i think thts maybe cus i haven't been gettin out much. We have a pool at our apt. but who wants t swim in kid's p, yeah not a great smell t have on you at all. My best friend Dea might be coming to visit me next week & i would love tht because i miss her a lot & i miss having pool days with her. So i'll close my eyes real tight & make a wish that she gets to come. For now i'll just imagine myself having a relaxing day at the pool, ahh yes that's nice.

Run for the hills before they burn Listen the sound of the world Watch it turn But shake a little Sometimes I'm nervous when I talk I shake a little

Lately i have just been wanting to go out & buy a beautiful white dress. Just because i can i suppose. Not a wedding dress, but a beautiful white elegant dress. I think that every girl deserves to wear a white dress, even if its not their wedding. My beautiful blonde headed best friend told me the other day that if we aren't married by the time we are 35, we are having a wedding ceremony. Hahaha i love her crazy idea. But why not? Its a celebration of life right. Or maybe a celebration of our friendship. What a great idea Lexie had. So i just might go out n buy a lovely white gown, just cus i can!

Summers here to stay, and that sweet summer breeze will blow forever Go down to the shore, kick off your shoes, dive in the empty ocean

I just figured out how to make a collage! i adore blogging.

Well I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky Yes I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky

I want to get my hands dirty. You know that feeling you have when your a kid when your
planting something for the first time & your hands get so dirty from digging. That's what i would like to do. I would really like to buy an orange tree & plant it. Maybe in my Mom's backyard. I'm sure she would like that. There is just something about feeling rich, cold, dark soil in your hands. I have planted anything in a long time & i don't have a green thumb at all, it's actually more bluish. I already sent one plant to its grave this spring, so I'm not sure if i could handle a whole bloody tree! Maybe i just need to pray for that green thumb.

Well I have been searching all of my days All of my days Many a road, you know I’ve been walking on All of my days

I woke up in the middle of the afternoon! yet again. My sister & i took a walk & got slurpies from the gas station. On the walk back we sat down on a curb close t our apartment in an old neighborhood & had a good talk. There is a bush outside our apartment that has bright pink flowers growing on it & i thought, that color would look beautiful in my house! So i picked a few, Shea*my sister* got a vase & we put them in our living room in Shea's favorite place t put a vase of flowers. There is something about having a vase of flowers that just brings a room to life. Tonight we were asked to go out to dinner with two friends, Nicholas & Kathleen, to an Ethiopean restaurant. We got dressed up cute & off we went. It was so fun just to get out & socialize. The food was soooooo good! We went back to their home & had some proper irish tea & banana bread while we talked about relationships, ideas that the wrold puts on women, and our familes. Im so glad my sister & I have them in our lives. There is nothing like having a good talk with good down to earth people over a cup of tea. It was a good day.

Some say that Anna Friel got it all wrong with this dress, I think that she looks absolutely stunning.

So watch your time Time descends Let it spill quietly From your hands Oh, and the time is at hand When all things under the sky Go free of time

It's one of those days, the kind of day that you wake up & everything just feels good in the world. maybe it's because i started my day off with a cold cup of joe, which never happens. i think i might have to make tht a frequent occurrence in my life. i have been listening to the tranquil vocals of Alexi Murdoch ever since i woke up. i believe starting the morning with a good song or music sets the tone for you day. maybe you have something that you do every morning that helps your day just go a little smoother. i need t start doing something like this as much as i can. writing in my journal, reading an inspirational quote or scripture, brushing my teeth ( that was a joke i already do that every morning) anything t wake up & start my day off good. So im getting out in the world today & the sun is shining a little brighter, grabbing the shades to wear.

Well many a night I found myself with no friends standing near All of my days I cried aloud I shook my hands What am I doing here All of these days

I went & saw Away We Go today. It was pleasantly so fantastic! You go in thinking your gonna see a terrific movie, but it went deeper than i thought it would. There where so many things that it was about. Not just about two people inlove that are going t have a baby together, but two people that don't have it all together yet. They have just started out & it's okay not t have it all together, who really does? It was so refreshing to watch. It's about family & as cheesy as that sounds it was so real & raw. I'm probably gonna have t go see this one again, I can't remember the last time I fell so in love w a story & characters like i have with this movie. I didnt think that Maya & Jon would go very well together but their chemistry on screen is just so genuine. They are
happy together, there is no bickering, no fighting, they are just content w each other, & i like that. Of course I have only ever seen Maya when she was on SNL, although she was GREAT at what she did & really funny, I never really cared for her. I always found her obnoxious. The way she portrayed Verona, her character, was something that i was so surprised about. She pulled it off so well. I completely forgot that she was the same woman that used to do all those skits! I found her really inspiring in this role. She was beautiful on screen. Maya came across so confident in who she is in this film & that is beautiful. So go see this movie!!

Summers here to stay, and those sweet summer girls will dance forever Go down to the shore, kick off your shoes, dive in the empty ocean.

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